The Depths Of Shallowness

Drowning, Drowning in Cynicism; Drunk, Drunk with Sentimentality; Down, Down with Love; Dunked, Dunked in Life. Desperate Discourse. Disposable Desires. Dusky Dreams. Delirium. Dignity. Despair. Doubt. Duty. Dewy Days. Divine Divide. Dump Everything that Bothers in The Depths of Defiance. 《我的快樂時代》唱爛 才領悟代價多高昂 不能滿足不敢停站 然後怎樣 All Rights Reserved ©Angeline Ang

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Tempestuous. Intense. Proud. Intellectual. Easily Bored. Consummate Performer. Very Chinese. Very Charming. Fair. Pale. Long, Curly, Black Hair. BA(Hons). Literature. Philosophy. Japanese. Law. Dense in Relationships. Denser in All Else. Brooding. Sceptical. Condescending. Daria Morgendorffer meets Kitiara Uth Matar meets Ally McBeal. Always dreamy, always cynical, always elusive. Struggling writer, artist and student, in that order please.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Straight Up

The crooked cranny of Optimus – the part I am doubtful about - has been righted when he suddenly professed to thinking about marriage. But I supposed one can think about that even if one ain’t straight. I like starting the workday having long and slightly off-tangent + semi-serious msn chats with him (with him as the initiator of course). I like receiving his calls even if they last less than a minute (usually in response to something I smsed).

Best Friend is of the opinion we have lowered our standards impossibly, given the kind of men we are drawn to lately. I feel it simply reflects the lack of attractive and eligible men in our circles, such that it’s easier for someone with a different set of traits to stand out positively. Optimus is not my usual 1.8m tall, dimpled and veined male specimen, but I like his confident, no-nonsense: I-know-what-I-want-and-I-am-getting-it air. It gives me assurance that there are still things in life people can be sure about, even if I’m currently not of them (LOL, referring to both being that thing and person lah).

Interestingly, there has been a visitor with a Japanese id showing up regularly on my tracker lately. Have we met? Could you whiz me off to Japan, please? :)

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

生存以上, 生活以下

生存以上, 生活以下: 终於我的生命只剩生存; 活着只会呼吸吃饭喝水的生活.

How can I get out of this rut?

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Optimus Prime to the rescue yesterday. The maddeningly mediocre day was made bearable by our msn chat. Apparently, he is auditioning for SI3 this weekend. Prior to that, he had passed an audition earlier for the Chinese version of Don't Forget The Lyrics. I will sing Better Man & probably Home by Michael Buble, he said. Why now, why not earlier. I wasn't ready then. Now that my career is stable, it's time to actually do it.

When can I say the same for myself, be it the latter or the former?