I feel ridiculously 幸福 today. Let this blog entry be the riposte to future silly and impetuous declarations that I can and will never, ever experience happiness again. Happiness is over that corner waiting to pounce on me, I must realise. I have played my part by moving towards it, however unwittingly; and it patiently wears out any scepticism and suspicion on my side through the long march. I shall remember and be grateful at least for the next two days.
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My favourite person at the office gave me a surprise treat at My Humble House, Esplanade. Despite me whipping out the NKF discount coupon that would entitle us to $25 off the total bill, it came to a 3 digit figure anyhow. But we did agree unanimously that the final bill was nevertheless a vast improvement from our first visit there. I know, scary huh.
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This next part is censored because it is highly sensitive. But what happened made the most of my day mostly, and also, most unfortunately, made me revisit an issue I had only very recently considered finally closed after long and painful discussions with myself, weighing the invisible pros and inevitable cons . Now that this has tilted the balance in another's favour more and more, I'm no longer sure whether it's a route and risk I'm raring to undertake. I have just barely managed to brainwash myself into believing this is good for me but. But.
Current happiness have divorced the determination and delusion from the decision.
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I see the results of labour and love. It's very satisfying. I like what I'm doing very much. I thank you for the trust, the confidence and the acceptance. I will continue to strive harder and aim higher and make the most out of the best circumstances can offer.
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My favourite person has also invited me to be part of something that I'm only too happy to be.
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I bought 2 lovely tops within half an hr (same shop, lah)
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He matters not, now that being independently happy has divested me of any short-term desire. I hope it is as long as it gets. I love it when I feel this way. I drown all too easily in it. Let me drown.
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My favourite person at the office gave me a surprise treat at My Humble House, Esplanade. Despite me whipping out the NKF discount coupon that would entitle us to $25 off the total bill, it came to a 3 digit figure anyhow. But we did agree unanimously that the final bill was nevertheless a vast improvement from our first visit there. I know, scary huh.
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This next part is censored because it is highly sensitive. But what happened made the most of my day mostly, and also, most unfortunately, made me revisit an issue I had only very recently considered finally closed after long and painful discussions with myself, weighing the invisible pros and inevitable cons . Now that this has tilted the balance in another's favour more and more, I'm no longer sure whether it's a route and risk I'm raring to undertake. I have just barely managed to brainwash myself into believing this is good for me but. But.
Current happiness have divorced the determination and delusion from the decision.
*
I see the results of labour and love. It's very satisfying. I like what I'm doing very much. I thank you for the trust, the confidence and the acceptance. I will continue to strive harder and aim higher and make the most out of the best circumstances can offer.
*
My favourite person has also invited me to be part of something that I'm only too happy to be.
*
I bought 2 lovely tops within half an hr (same shop, lah)
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He matters not, now that being independently happy has divested me of any short-term desire. I hope it is as long as it gets. I love it when I feel this way. I drown all too easily in it. Let me drown.
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