Closer With Closure (Updated Further)
Mr Dimples and I had been sitting by the beach of East Coast Park for the last three hours if you exclude the one hour spent in the small Japanese café.
We both had a long crappy day at work and we know how misery loves serendipitous company. So we met and exchanged grievances over dinner. I didn’t feel like eating but ordered a cold miso tofu to make him happy.
We definitely weren’t in the best of spirits but I like to think the chat by the sea and the night wind made us happier. We left with a lighter heart.
He talked briefly about the girlfriend (finally) and I buddified him forever by sharing (in generously general terms) my inability to be honest when it comes to relationships.
It was simple pleasure just sitting there and talking about things that matter to us, not worrying about time or work. I don't remember doing this before with any friend in recent times, not at the beach during nighttime for sure.
I hope I can do it soon again, with someone I really like and care about. When can I allow myself to fall in love?
Addendum (You knew it was coming, didn't you):
Me: Were we really, really at East Coast Park last night? Seems so surreal in the morning. But having to go to work is real.
Mr Dimples: Hi morning, yup, the surreal night. I also watched a night of dramatic soccer, slept at 6am and woke up now. Remember what we promised to do 100 percent.
(NB to readers: 100 percent refers to our rash vows the surreal night)
Me: Please find me a corporate knight in Armani suit to win my 100% I want to be a housewife and mother and just serve my husband :(
Mr Dimples: Haha. Don’t kid me and yourself. You can only do that for two days. The 100 percent is for you to give, not for him to win.
Me: 乱给不是很浪费，因为万一他不喜欢就会很难过。
Mr Dimples: You are afraid of failure.
Me: 默默、悄悄、静静付出，就算只有自己知道，也可以吧。
Mr Dimples: You are too noble :)
Me: Oh please. I just don’t settle for less. Boo.
Mr Dimples: Ha, this world isn’t perfect, and perfect people don’t exist. Being able to live with this fact would make life so much easier and happier.
At some point in time during dinner, he laughed, and smiled, and said I had a really cute expression.
There was an almost Definitely Maybe moment when the night wind was whipping our faces and we were watching the waves, and I said the only difference is the missing physicality, that we are not holding hands or doing anything like that now. There must have been a context that prompted my remark: probably when I was telling the key difference for me between a guy friend and a boyfriend (again). Our hands were still ours, and we just looked at each other wonderingly, keenly, quizzically, sadly at different times during the night.
I guess if I had a boyfriend and I knew he did the exact same thing with another girl, ie strolling on the beach and talking by the sea till past midnight, I wouldn’t be too happy about that. And my boyfriend has every reason to be unhappy with me if I allowed myself to be placed in that position.
Well, it’s a one night only thing. We have both agreed it was surreal on hindsight and I don’t think it would happen again. I shall certainly try to avoid. He met her parents last week for the first time.
We both had a long crappy day at work and we know how misery loves serendipitous company. So we met and exchanged grievances over dinner. I didn’t feel like eating but ordered a cold miso tofu to make him happy.
We definitely weren’t in the best of spirits but I like to think the chat by the sea and the night wind made us happier. We left with a lighter heart.
He talked briefly about the girlfriend (finally) and I buddified him forever by sharing (in generously general terms) my inability to be honest when it comes to relationships.
It was simple pleasure just sitting there and talking about things that matter to us, not worrying about time or work. I don't remember doing this before with any friend in recent times, not at the beach during nighttime for sure.
I hope I can do it soon again, with someone I really like and care about. When can I allow myself to fall in love?
Addendum (You knew it was coming, didn't you):
Me: Were we really, really at East Coast Park last night? Seems so surreal in the morning. But having to go to work is real.
Mr Dimples: Hi morning, yup, the surreal night. I also watched a night of dramatic soccer, slept at 6am and woke up now. Remember what we promised to do 100 percent.
(NB to readers: 100 percent refers to our rash vows the surreal night)
Me: Please find me a corporate knight in Armani suit to win my 100% I want to be a housewife and mother and just serve my husband :(
Mr Dimples: Haha. Don’t kid me and yourself. You can only do that for two days. The 100 percent is for you to give, not for him to win.
Me: 乱给不是很浪费，因为万一他不喜欢就会很难过。
Mr Dimples: You are afraid of failure.
Me: 默默、悄悄、静静付出，就算只有自己知道，也可以吧。
Mr Dimples: You are too noble :)
Me: Oh please. I just don’t settle for less. Boo.
Mr Dimples: Ha, this world isn’t perfect, and perfect people don’t exist. Being able to live with this fact would make life so much easier and happier.
At some point in time during dinner, he laughed, and smiled, and said I had a really cute expression.
There was an almost Definitely Maybe moment when the night wind was whipping our faces and we were watching the waves, and I said the only difference is the missing physicality, that we are not holding hands or doing anything like that now. There must have been a context that prompted my remark: probably when I was telling the key difference for me between a guy friend and a boyfriend (again). Our hands were still ours, and we just looked at each other wonderingly, keenly, quizzically, sadly at different times during the night.
I guess if I had a boyfriend and I knew he did the exact same thing with another girl, ie strolling on the beach and talking by the sea till past midnight, I wouldn’t be too happy about that. And my boyfriend has every reason to be unhappy with me if I allowed myself to be placed in that position.
Well, it’s a one night only thing. We have both agreed it was surreal on hindsight and I don’t think it would happen again. I shall certainly try to avoid. He met her parents last week for the first time.
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