Here's To Myself: Hop On The Joyride
My senior shared some news with me.
*beams* 刹那间，黑暗中亮出曙光，实在振奋人心。
Let me buy lunch, please, I pleaded and promptly whisked us to Noble House. Ordered Peking Duck to celebrate. Heavy, decadent meal but heck, I feel more in control now. Life, it seems, can be very good again, with a definite sense of purpose.
Later evening, I walked out of another place, feeling invincible. Or, at the very least, more like my old self. I hadn’t realized until it was pointed out kindly that I might have been exhibiting little traits that don’t do justice to my personality and character. Little traits that made me go WTF (yes, again), what a loser, yuck when I reflected and did my mental check. So yes, I had a useful session, or prep talk if you will, that made me think.
Since initiation and immersion into work world, I suppose I have ignored, downplay, prune aspects of myself due to the crazy things and people I have encountered, especially when I first started out. Which I had believed in good faith was a prudent move then in early days. In short, much as this may elicit snorts of incredulity from people who know me best inside out, I did attempt, to the best of my ability, to come across as modest, composed and agreeable. Being new, I had thought it good and healthy to play the safe, unthreatening role.
Which may not be such an excellent idea now.
So yes, I’m welcoming the long repressed sides of myself from the long respite and telling them to party and just enjoy the ride in life.
Welcome back, old loud, animated me. You were missed dearly at work. Maybe that’s why I have been wrongly typecast as subdued (!!) and nonchalant (??) at the odd potentially important career-changing moments (actually, only one so far).
My supervisor would chuckle and protest, I’m sure, and go WTF, even though she’s so distinguished.
Anyhow, I’m glad I can say with sincerity I have benefited from today (no pun intended, really!!!) and the people whom I met up with, who made a difference to my life henceforth.
I feel much, much happier professionally than I’ve ever been for a long time. A zestful happy state that goes beyond the promotion and payraise. Glam it up, babe.
*beams* 刹那间，黑暗中亮出曙光，实在振奋人心。
Let me buy lunch, please, I pleaded and promptly whisked us to Noble House. Ordered Peking Duck to celebrate. Heavy, decadent meal but heck, I feel more in control now. Life, it seems, can be very good again, with a definite sense of purpose.
Later evening, I walked out of another place, feeling invincible. Or, at the very least, more like my old self. I hadn’t realized until it was pointed out kindly that I might have been exhibiting little traits that don’t do justice to my personality and character. Little traits that made me go WTF (yes, again), what a loser, yuck when I reflected and did my mental check. So yes, I had a useful session, or prep talk if you will, that made me think.
Since initiation and immersion into work world, I suppose I have ignored, downplay, prune aspects of myself due to the crazy things and people I have encountered, especially when I first started out. Which I had believed in good faith was a prudent move then in early days. In short, much as this may elicit snorts of incredulity from people who know me best inside out, I did attempt, to the best of my ability, to come across as modest, composed and agreeable. Being new, I had thought it good and healthy to play the safe, unthreatening role.
Which may not be such an excellent idea now.
So yes, I’m welcoming the long repressed sides of myself from the long respite and telling them to party and just enjoy the ride in life.
Welcome back, old loud, animated me. You were missed dearly at work. Maybe that’s why I have been wrongly typecast as subdued (!!) and nonchalant (??) at the odd potentially important career-changing moments (actually, only one so far).
My supervisor would chuckle and protest, I’m sure, and go WTF, even though she’s so distinguished.
Anyhow, I’m glad I can say with sincerity I have benefited from today (no pun intended, really!!!) and the people whom I met up with, who made a difference to my life henceforth.
I feel much, much happier professionally than I’ve ever been for a long time. A zestful happy state that goes beyond the promotion and payraise. Glam it up, babe.
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