Alone By Choice & Lonely By Nature

Tell me, that it isn't a terrible thing to be alone, simply because, you dun want anyone else's company except the one you can't have, that you can't bring yourself to ask for, any more.

Maybe I have finally grown a conscience and started treating others with dignity.

Maybe because I realise I can't fake it any longer.

Perhaps, I am as naive and stubborn as I always was.

But here I am, alone and lonely on a Friday, that I could have taken precautions to pre-empt easily. But which I didn't. And making quarter-hearted attempts to do something about it only now with an hour to go before I leave the office.

I dun want to fill the gap when it can't reach the root and I'm not gonna be the filler for your gap either.

I'm a big, big girl in a big, big world. It's not a big, big thing that you leave me.

But you know, I din count on missing you so much.

Addendum: Eventually, it was Best Friend to the rescue. Although she wouldn't know that till she starts reading this entry. Nothing beats a good meal and spending time together. Thank you for saving me :)