原谅我就是这样的女生
Sms received at 9.53am today.
Good morning Angeline. On this cold and wet morning, I’m attempting to bridge this awkward lack of contact between us for the last 1 year plus. Lack of time could be a side reason, though lack of determination could be more likely. Would you want to meet up sometime this week for dinner?
From Mr Dimples.
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Is there anything more he could say, that could make things any different, to make me feel any differently about him?
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I heard from mutual friends that he has proposed to his girlfriend sometime back.
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May I continue to ignore him?
Addendum: The only possible (and warranted) response is status quo ie. dignified silence. What can we talk about, like really. His happiness? His unhappiness? Both will be just as unsavoury. Granted I can't prevent him from checking me on FB, but I can make a determined effort effortlessly to keep him out of my real life. Just don't reply.
I need to thank Mr Dimples all the same. He reminds me of my younger self with his rather relentless, unwavering ways of extorting a response. Once upon a time, with Mr Veins, I sent similar occasional unorthodox smses that hit the wall. There are similarities here and I believe I have found my closure, the reasons why Mr Veins did what he did (not).
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我不够认份 所以怕再为谁作出牺牲
爱要有天份 所以我始终学不会放任
我不够天真 不允许我傻傻的等
对自己残忍 多残忍 我要有分寸
我太过认真 所以才相信所谓的永恒
爱让人恍神 所以止不住不小心沉沦
我太负责任 不允许有太多悔恨
对自己坦诚 多坦诚 我自有分寸
无辜的人 很需要叹气声
我只是无辜的人 很需要叹气声
有一些文字的吻 只留给伤过的人
明知道有些问题 没有答案还是要问
原谅我 因为我就是 这样的
原谅我 因为我就是 这样的女生
Good morning Angeline. On this cold and wet morning, I’m attempting to bridge this awkward lack of contact between us for the last 1 year plus. Lack of time could be a side reason, though lack of determination could be more likely. Would you want to meet up sometime this week for dinner?
From Mr Dimples.
*
Is there anything more he could say, that could make things any different, to make me feel any differently about him?
*
I heard from mutual friends that he has proposed to his girlfriend sometime back.
*
May I continue to ignore him?
Addendum: The only possible (and warranted) response is status quo ie. dignified silence. What can we talk about, like really. His happiness? His unhappiness? Both will be just as unsavoury. Granted I can't prevent him from checking me on FB, but I can make a determined effort effortlessly to keep him out of my real life. Just don't reply.
Anyway, I have already given due respect and accountability to our "past" by asking close friends in-the-know about us. Yes, I just needed that poll, even though it won't change the outcome. I must admit the sudden and totally unexpected sms did disrupt my day and made me pause to think seriously at one point about agreeing to meet up. But what if he brings his fiancee and I think even worse of him than I do now? But what if I started articulating my previous anger and angst, and I just appear sore and petty in front of a very tired man who simply wants to renew a cherished friendship?
I need to thank Mr Dimples all the same. He reminds me of my younger self with his rather relentless, unwavering ways of extorting a response. Once upon a time, with Mr Veins, I sent similar occasional unorthodox smses that hit the wall. There are similarities here and I believe I have found my closure, the reasons why Mr Veins did what he did (not).
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我不够认份 所以怕再为谁作出牺牲
爱要有天份 所以我始终学不会放任
我不够天真 不允许我傻傻的等
对自己残忍 多残忍 我要有分寸
我太过认真 所以才相信所谓的永恒
爱让人恍神 所以止不住不小心沉沦
我太负责任 不允许有太多悔恨
对自己坦诚 多坦诚 我自有分寸
无辜的人 很需要叹气声
我只是无辜的人 很需要叹气声
有一些文字的吻 只留给伤过的人
明知道有些问题 没有答案还是要问
原谅我 因为我就是 这样的
原谅我 因为我就是 这样的女生
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